Tuesday, December 14, 2010

The Lighting of the Lamp

"Let the Dominus Liminis take pure lead, tin, and quicksilver, with platinum, and, if need be, glass. Let him by his understanding and ingenium devise a Magick Lamp that shall burn without wick or oil, being fed by the Aethyr. This shall he accomplish secretly and apart, without asking the advice or approval of his Adeptus Minor. Let the Dominus Liminis keep it when consecrated in the secret chamber of Art. This then is that which is written: "Bring furnished with complete armour and armed, he is similar to the goddess." And again, "I am armed, I am armed."
-Liber CDXII - A vel Armorum



The solution to this puzzle has eluded me for years. I had all the pieces before me but never saw it. The blindingly obvious answer leaves no doubt of the solution.

The Gordian Knot has been untied. The lamp has been lit. May it's light shine on the path before me.



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Monday, September 27, 2010

Outline of Liber CL, Liber CL Vel לענ, A Sandal, De Lege Libellum

Liber CL is easily one of the most beautiful and easy to understand of Crowley's writings. In it he describes the Law of Thelema as emanating in four rays consisting of Light, Love, Life, and Liberty. Each one impacts and strengthens the other as they are the same being of the Law. In a way they can be seen as a new aeonic version of the Christian's three theological virtues of faith, hope, and charity. They believed that these three virtues allowed man to share in God's nature. Thelema declares "the Law is for all" and it's four rays allow man to experience his own nature.

LAW: spring four Rays or Emanations: Light, Life, Love, and Liberty.

"By Light shall ye look upon yourselves, and behold All Things that are in Truth One Thing only, whose name hath been called No Thing for a cause which later shall be declared unto you. But the substance of Light is Life, since without Existence and Energy it were naught. By Life therefore are you made yourselves, eternal and incorruptible, flaming forth as suns, self-created and self-supported, each the sole centre of the Universe.

Now by the Light ye beheld, by Love ye feel. There is an ecstacy of pure Knowledge, and another of pure Love. And this Love is the force that uniteth things diverse, for the contemplation in Light of their Oneness. Know that the Universe is not at rest, but in extreme motion whose sum is Rest. And this understanding that Stability is Change, and Change Stability, that Being is Becoming, and Becoming Being, is the Key to the Golden Palace of this Law.

Lastly, by Liberty is the power to direct your course according to your Will. For the extent of the Universe is without bounds, and ye are free to make your pleasure as ye will, seeing that the diversity of being is infinite also. For this also is the Joy of the Law, that no two stars are alike, and ye must understand also that this Multiplicity is itself Unity, and without it Unity could not be. And this is an hard saying against Reason: ye shall comprehend, when, rising above Reason, which is but a manipulation of the Mind, ye come to pure Knowledge by direct perception of the Truth."



LIBERTY: except ye be free to act, ye cannot act.

"The great bond of all bonds is ignorance. How shall a man be free to act if he know not his own purpose? You must therefore first of all discover which star of all the stars you are, your relation to the other stars about you, and your relation to, and identity with, the Whole."

Discover your will, your purpose in life, then with clarifty and single minded direction pursue it. Light can shine in the darkness but focused into a laser it can cut through steel.

Slavery is freedom. You are already a slave; to a god or a religion, to a societies morals and values, your parents, your family, the herd. Give yourself to your own will rather than outside. As Bob Dylan said, "You gotta serve somebody".

Suggestions:
1. Discard all those gross obvious hindrances to your Will: idleness, foolish friendships, waste employments or enjoyments

2. Find the minimum of daily time which is in good sooth necessary to your natural life. The rest you shall devote to the True Means of your Attainment. And even these necessary hours you shall consecrate to the Great Work, saying consciously always while at these Tasks that you perform them only in order to preserve your body and mind in health for the right application to that sublime and single Object.


LOVE: Love is the enkindling in ecstacy of Two that will to become One.

"Seek ye all therefore constantly to unite yourselves in rapture with each and every thing that is, and that by utmost passion and lust of Union. To this end take chiefly all such things as are naturally repulsive. For what is pleasant is assimilated easily and without ecstacy: it is in the transfiguration of the loathsome and abhorred into The Beloved that the Self is shaken to the root in Love."

Suggestions:
1. Here is the method of Love in Meditation. Let the Aspirant first practice and then discipline himself in the Art of fixing the attention upon any thing whatsoever at will, without permitting the least imaginable distraction.

2. Let him also practice the art of the Analysis of Ideas, and that of refusing to allow the mind its natural reaction to them, pleasant or unpleasant, thus fixing himself in Simplicity and Indifference.


LIFE: the consciousness of continuity given by memory.

"Life then is indestructible as all else is. Yet even as the blood in one pulse-throb of the wrist is not the same blood as that in the next, so individuality is in part destroyed as each life passeth; nay, even with each thought.

What then maketh man, if he dieth and is reborn a changeling with each breath? This: the consciousness of continuity given by memory, the conception of his Self as something whose existence, far from being threatened by these changes, is in verity assured by them. Let then the aspirant to the sacred Wisdom consider his Self no more as one segment of the Serpent, but as the whole. Let him extend his consciousness to regard both birth and death as incidents trivial as systole and diastole of the heart itself, and necessary as they to its function."


Man is not static as the masses believe. Man, as all things are, is always changing. Every moment and every second cells within you die and are reborn. Every new idea, concept, experience changes you ever so slightly. You are not the same being you were only a moment ago. To stop changing and remain the same is the true death.

Suggestions:
1. The first mode is the acquisition of the Magical Memory.

2. The second mode is to dissociate the beings which make up your life. Firstly, you should segregate that Form which is called the Body of Light and set yourself to travel in this Form.


LIGHT: By Light shall ye look upon yourselves, and behold All Things that are in Truth One Thing only, whose name hath been called No Thing

"In this Light naught exists, for It is homogeneous: and therefore have men called it Silence, and Darkness, and Nothing. But in this, as in all other effort to name it, is the root of every falsity and misapprehension, since all words imply some duality. Therefore, though I call it Light, it is not Light, nor absence of Light. Many also have sought to describe it by contradictions, since through transcendent negation of all speech it may by some natures be attained. Also by images and symbols have men striven to express it: but always in vain."


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Friday, September 24, 2010

A Look at the Star Ruby

There seems to be a lot of variations on how to actually perform the Star Ruby. Examining them and my current understanding of the symbolism of the ritual I have compiled a summery of the ritual with brief notes on its performance.

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(0) Harpocrates and Apo pantos kakodaimonos: The “Zero Formula” which precedes the Elemental steps.

Assume the God Form of Harpocrates. See yourself within the Egg of Blue, as Harpocrates, in order to enter a deep silence, to establish the Qabalistic Zero.

(1) Qabalistic Cross: Formulation of the Tree of Life: an expression of the aspiration to go on.

Soi: Kether - beginning and end
O Phalleh: Bridging heaven and earth. Column of light, the divine creative power.
Ischuros: Geburah - All-Devourer
Eucharistos: Chesed - All-Begetter
IAO : The balance of Tiphareth


(2) The Pentagrams: Earth, Air, Water, Fire = Malkuth, Yesod, Hod, Netzach.

Pause a moment at each direction to formulate the gate of the quarter. Strongly associate with the elemental and symbolic aspects.

EAST: Earth / Heh final / Malkuth / Therion - male Creative Principle / Projecting
NORTH: Air / Vav / Yesod / Nuit - infinitely vast / All
WEST: Water / Heh / Hod / Babalon - female Creative Principle / Recieving
SOUTH: Fire / Yod / Netzach / Hadit - unique point experience / nothing


(3) Return to the Center: Tiphereth. The N.O.X. Signs: Geburah, Chesed, Da’ath, Binah.

Assume the sign, full inhalation, and full exhaultation while saying the letter.
Stand in the sign of Puer: N
Stand in the sign of Vir: O
Stand in the sign of Puella: Silence
Stand in the sign of Mulier: X. NOX. IO PAN!
Stand in the sign of Mater Triumphans.


(4) Setting the Guardians: Briatic Wardens of the Quarters. Standing in the form of the Tau, Saturn, Binah.

PRO MOU IUNGES (initiators)
OPISO MOU TELETARChAI (maintainers)
EPI DEXIA SYNOChEIS (perfectors)
EPARISTERA DAIMONES (executors)

FLEGEI GAR PERI MOU O ASTHR TON PENTE,
KAI EN THI STHLHI O ASTHR TON HEX ESTHKE.


(5) Qabalistic Cross: Confirm the flowing forth of L.V.X. through the entire Tree of Life.

ADDITIONAL COMMENTS:
On one level the star ruby can be seen as scaling the tree of life. On another level you are describing the apparent duality around you. Male and female, infinite large and small, etc then transcending that duality into briatic consciousness via the NOX signs.

Performing the lesser banishing ritual of the pentagram for any length of time and you will experience a spiritualizing of the material. The star ruby seems to impart a sense of empowerment and detachment instead. Which is not surprising with it's martial nature.


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Friday, May 14, 2010

The Lesson of Saying Will

I like saying Will before meals. It is a nice little thing and adds to the ritualization of life. It comes highly recommended by Crowley in the first few letters from "Magick Without Tears" as essential and one of the first practices to adopt along with Liber Resh, keeping a journal, and study of Liber AL vel Legis. I think the importance is overlooked by most people, even people who perform it daily.
What exactly is it we really doing and what is the lesson it teaches?

From Thelemapedia: "Saying Will is a short ritual practiced by many Thelemites before meals, serving a similar purpose as saying Grace does for many Christians."

This is blatantly untrue. Saying Grace for a Christian is a thanksgiving to God for the food that he has provided for them. There is no aspect of this found in saying Will.

It goes on further to say, "The ritual of Saying Will is intended to maintain the focus of those who practice it on The Great Work by reminding them that even so mundane an act as eating a meal is an essential part of that Work."

Now this is true, but it is a shallow understanding of the greater lesson.

First lets look at the actual text of what Saying Will involves:

Leader: (knocks 3-5-3) Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.

All: What is thy will?

Leader: It is my will to eat and to drink.

All: To what end?

Leader: That I may fortify my body thereby.

All: To what end?

Leader: That I may accomplish the Great Work.

All: Love is the law, love under will.

(knocks 1)


We are doing X to get Y. We want Y because we ultimately want Z. To what end is the refrain. To what end is the lesson and the question you should be asking yourself in every aspect of your life. First what is your goal? What are you working towards and trying to achieve? Do you even know? If you do know, is what you are doing right now aiding that goal, hindering that goal, or does it have nothing at all to do with it?

These are the types of questions you should be asking yourself and you should be doing it constantly with every act. What is the purpose of what you doing? If you practice meditation what is it you are hoping to attain? If you attain that thing, what then? Why do you want to attain it in the first place? Is it part of a larger goal or are you just doing it to do it?

To what end, should be our constant and never ending refrain.

I am practicing asana and pranayama.
To what end?
To still the body and the mind.
To what end?
So that I can practice Dharana without distraction.
To what end?
That I may achieve Samadhi.
To what end?
To experience first hand a non-dualistic state of consciousness.
To what end?
To test the validity of what has been written and achieve self realization.
To what end?

This can go on ad nauseum, but this is the kind of questioning you should be doing. What is your purpose for eating, for going to the bathroom, for going to work, for doing a banishing ritual? Where is all these leading to? If the answers to the questions are getting harder and harder to come up with then you are actually getting some where. If what you are doing serves no purpose then why are you doing it? If what you are doing actually hinders your goals then it should be eliminated. If you cannot come up with a purpose for the act yet still feel adamant about doing it then that should be investigated. The results will be very surprising.

Saying Will is a daily reminder to engage in this line of thinking. To have purpose in all that you do. It is a constant narrowing down of focus and purpose to your ultimate aim, your true will. If magick is causing change in conformity with will then you have to have a purpose for will to be involved. If that is missing then it is not magical and it is definitely not Thelemic.

Have the courage to ask yourself, To what end.

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Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Outline of Liber DCCCXXXVII - The Law of Liberty

This book is a short overview of the joyous freedom the Law of Thelema brings. The text taking the form of numerous examples from Liber AL vel Legis extolling this joy.

Chapter I is of Nuit, Lady of the Starry Heaven, who is also Matter in its deepest metaphysical sense, who is the infinite in whom all we live and move and have our being.

1. Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law. A declaration of rejoicing and freedom as there is no law beyond Do what thou wilt!

2. Every man and every woman is a star. We are all free, all independent, all shining gloriously, each one a radiant world.

3. Come forth, o children, under the stars, & take your fill of love! I am above you and in you. My ecstasy is in yours. My joy is to see your joy. Even our infinite environment seeks our joy.

4. For I am divided for love's sake, for the chance of union. That even sorrow only exists so that it can be overcome.

5. This is the creation of the world, that the pain of division is as nothing, and the joy of dissolution all. Even death should be joyful.

6. Be goodly therefore: dress ye all in fine apparel; eat rich foods and drink sweet wines and wines that foam! Also, take your fill and will of love as ye will, when, where, and with whom ye will! But always unto me. Thelema is not an ideology of abstinence of material pleasure, but rather delights in them as much as spiritual pleasures as they are part and parcel of the human condition and ultimatly expressing your joys is inherently thelemic.

7. But ecstasy be thine and joy of earth: ever To me! To me! Through your expression of joy draws you ever near to Nuit.

8. Love is the law, love under will. The will is the highest precept but all is love. Realizing this the Law of your being becomes Light, Life, Love and Liberty.

9. I give unimaginable joys on earth: certainty, not faith, while in life, upon death; peace unutterable, rest, ecstasy; nor do I demand aught in sacrifice. The shackles of the slave gods are dead. The demand of faith is replaced with certainty. The hoped for reward after death is given in life. There thirst for sacrifice both of other and of self is over.

10. I love you! I yearn to you! Pale or purple, veiled or voluptuous, I who am all pleasure and purple, and drunkenness of the innermost sense, desire you. Put on the wings, and arouse the coiled splendour within you: come unto me! The need to live by the rules of the Gods and prove ourselves worthy are at an end.

11. Sing the rapturous love-song unto me! Burn to me perfumes! Wear to me jewels! Drink to me, for I love you! I love you! I am the blue- lidded daughter of Sunset; I am the naked brilliance of the voluptuous night-sky. To me! To me! Further call to come unto the dissolution of Nuit in unending joy.




Chapter II is of Hadit, who is the complement of Nuit. He is eternal energy, the Infinite Motion of Things, the central core of all being. The manifested Universe comes from the marriage of Nuit and Hadit; without this could no thing be. This eternal, this perpetual marriage-feast is then the nature of things themselves; and therefore everything that is, is a crystallization of divine ecstasy.

1. I am the flame that burns in every heart of man, and in the core of every star. Hadit is our inmost divine self and we ourselves are embraced by the eternal Nuit.

2. We are not for the poor and the sad: the lords of the earth are our kinsfolk. Thelema is not for the slaves but for the kings. To embrace Thelema is to become a king.

3. Is a God to live in a dog? No! but the highest are of us. They shall rejoice, our chosen: who sorroweth is not of us. We do not traffic in the trappings of the slaves.

4. Beauty and strength, leaping laughter and delicious languor, force and fire, are of us. Rather we traffic in beauty, strength, and joy.

5. Think not, o king, upon that lie: That Thou Must Die: verily thou shalt not die, but live. Now let it be understood: If the body of the King dissolve, he shall remain in pure ecstasy for ever. Even the fear and sting of death is not for us but only delight.

6. It is a lie, this folly against self. ... Be strong, o man! lust, enjoy all things of sense and rapture: fear not that any God shall deny thee for this. Again Thelema is not about attainment through repression, but rather through expression.

7. But ye, o my people, rise up & awake! Let the rituals be rightly performed with joy & beauty! Remember that all acts of love and pleasure are rituals, must be rituals. There are rituals of the elements and feasts of the times. A feast for the first night of the Prophet and his Bride! A feast for the three days of the writing of the Book of the Law. A feast for Tahuti and the child of the Prophet-secret, o Prophet! A feast for the Supreme Ritual, and a feast for the Equinox of the Gods. A feast for fire and a feast for water; a feast for life and a greater feast for death! A feast every day in your hearts in the joy of my rapture! A feast every night unto Nu, and the pleasure of uttermost delight! Aye! feast! rejoice! there is no dread hereafter. There is the dissolution, and eternal ecstasy in the kisses of Nu. To accept and understand the Law of Thelema brings freedom from the foolishness of the past. All you have to do is to be yourself, to do your will, and to rejoice.

8. Dost thou fail? Art thou sorry? Is fear in thine heart? Where I am, these are not. There is no regret, fear, or failure in Hadit.

9. Wisdom says: be strong! Then canst thou bear more joy. Be not animal; refine thy rapture! If thou drink, drink by the eight and ninety rules of art: if thou love, exceed by delicacy; and if thou do aught joyous, let there be subtlety therein! But exceed! exceed! Strive ever to more! and if thou art truly mine-and doubt it not, an if thou art ever joyous!-death is the crown of all. Strive ever onward to greaeter hights of love, law, and liberty.

10. There is no law beyond Do what thou wilt. Our freedom and delight upon the earth.

11. The word of Sin is Restriction.
Again and again the repressions of the old are at a end, the only transgression is limitation.


NOTE: I find it interesting that no selections were made from the third chapter which is of Ra-Hoor-Khuit.

Is Thelema a Religion?

One of the hottest topics of debate currently going on in the Thelemic community is the definition of Thelema. Is it a religion, is it a philosophy, an ideology, or some hybrid of these concepts. The head of the O.T.O. is heavily pushing this idea as well as others, but many people disagree. The debate is further complicated by the fact that Crowley gives various answers to this question. At one point saying yes it is and still at other times saying no it is not, most notably in Magick Without Tears.

First lets define our terms.

Religion - a set of beliefs concerning the cause, nature, and purpose of the universe, esp. when considered as the creation of a superhuman agency or agencies, usually involving devotional and ritual observances, and often containing a moral code governing the conduct of human affairs.

Going by the definition of religion Thelema doesn't fit very well. Beliefs is a poor word choice. Thelema presents a set of ideas but you are never asked to believe them, rather test them and see if they are true or not true. "Success is thy proof." Further Thelema does not concern itself with the cause, nature, and purpose of the universe, but rather the nature and purpose of the individual. Although it does contain a moral code of conduct centered upon the will.

This being said Thelema does exhibit many of the qualities we expect from a religion. There are gods or godforms. There is a central holy text. The Book of Lies could be considered a Thelemic version of The Book of Proverbs and Lber LXV and other "holy" texts similar to The Book of Psalms from the Christian and Jewish religions. There is a group ritual similar to the Catholic Mass and even prescribed daily adorations like the Muslim Salah.

The problem is with the use of words. We use them so often we forget that they are nothing more than symbols used to convey ideas. That symbols can have different meanings for different people and different contexts. This is especially true for such a loaded word as religion. It can be even more dangerous than a loaded gun.

The symbolic meaning and context has changed over time. During the Aeon of Isis "religion" was nature based. It was centered around the relationship between man and his environment; animalism, totemism, and the like. During the Aeon of Osiris this focus shifted to the relationship between man and the group; temple priests, the Church, and the congregation. Now that we have entered into the Aeon of Horus the focus is upon the relationship between man and himself.

If you use the word Religion in the context of the new aeon, then yes you could justifiably call Thelema a religion. The problem is the Aeon of Horus is so young, only a little over a 100 years, that most people's context, even most Thelemites, is still in the last aeon. With this in mind it is easy to see why Crowley said calling Thelema a religion would "cause a great deal of misunderstanding, and work a rather stupid kind of mischief." Even if you are a self described Thelemite, but still have an old aeonic context, then the word religion would bring a lot of excess baggage with it that would not be helpful and most likely harmful.

To avoid the clash of symbolic contexts it is best to say that Thelema is not a religion and be done with it. If the majority sets the context then Thelema is not a religion. This will of course change as the new aeon matures but not in our lifetime. The Aeon of Horus still has another 1,900 years, give or take a few centuries, and a lot will happen before it ends. Until then I think it is best to self describe Thelema as an Ideology.

Ideology - An ideology is a set of ideas that discusses one's goals, expectations, and actions.

It seems a much better fit for Thelema concerning our current contexts.

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Tuesday, May 11, 2010

Promote Thelema


"You may regard the establishment of the Law of Thelema as an essential element of your True Will"
-Duty

In Liber CCC - Khabs am Pekht we are instructed by Crowley that every effort should be made to spread the Law of Thelema, that the Law is for all. In an earlier post I give an over view of the text and instructions. One of the suggestions made, is that tracts be written and distributed. In this light and duty bound I am attempting to do my small part. I have created a PDF file for free direct download of Thelemic Bookmarks. Each contains a short quote from Liber AL vel Legis citing chapter and verse.

The idea is simple. Download the file and print them off on simple card stock. Cut them out and visit your local library, book store, or mega book store such as Barnes & Noble, Books-a-Million, etc, then place them within various random books. People will discover them and use them as a bookmark or throw them away. Regardless the seed will be planted. The meme will spread. They show others the odd thing they found. If they are intrigued by the bookmark and what it means they will search for more information. Even a simple internet search will bring them to the Book of the Law. The meme will spread as they tell others the odd thing they found. So on and so forth.

This simple method fulfills Liber AL III:42 "Success is thy proof: argue not; convert not; talk not over much!"

To help do your part:
1. Down load the PDF File: HERE
2. Print it off on card stock.
3. Cut them out.
4. Visit your local library and book store and place within the books.

Monday, May 10, 2010

The Importance of Using Metrics

It is extremely important to establish metrics in your magical practice. This is something I see a lot of people fail at. You have to have some way to measure and quantify the particular characteristics you are trying to achieve. Without it you have no idea if what you are doing is working or not. The more vague and abstract the practice, such as simple banishing or meditation, the more the establishment of certain benchmarks need to be set and tracked in a definitive manner. It is so easy to be "working" on something and waste a lot of time going in circles, perhaps even years, with very little progress. If you would only track it in a systematic way you would realize you had already succeeded or not made any real progress at all bringing you to the conclusion that you need to change your methods and approach. Without metrics you will never be able to clearly say you succeeded or in the very least made progress. By applying metrics you can compress the time till result in record time, guaranteed.

A very good example of this is my recent Fear project.

Once I have applied enough introspection to peel back my issues like an onion I was able to see the root causality.

Lack of direction ->Desire for self mastery->Discovery of Fears->Narrowing down to specific fears->Causal root of self acceptance.

Once the WHY was done I tackled the HOW. i.e. The methods and plan of attack.
The next step which is just as important, or in my opinion more important, was defining success.

I sat down and thought what would success look like? What would it feel like? How would I know if I succeeded? What characteristics would that exhibit and what would each stage towards that look like? How can I measure it definitively?

Doing so I outlined five basic stages I would need to progress through, each with their own specific benchmark, measurement, and sign of achievement, from the very easy all the way up to the ultimate success as I defined it. It has roughly been only about two weeks, yet I have already achieved every milestone I set for myself except for the final mark of success which should come shortly. This is what I mean by compressing the time till results. It allows an immediate measure of where you are, where you came from, and what you need to achieve next and what your focus should be to proceed with your agenda.

1. For every practice define success. What do you want? What is the end result you are after?
2. Come up with a system of measurement to gauge your progress towards mastery of that practice.
3. Determine the series of steps and stages from your current level to what you defined as mastery.
4. Track your progress or lack thereof, making adjustments as needed.
5. Succeed!

To Kill a Rat

I was doing some yard work yesterday and noticed in the small closet in my garage a very big pile of rodent droppings. They were very large, not the small field mice droppings, I figured we had either a very large rat or a small possum living in there. I began to pull stuff out and clean up when the rat darted out to run behind the hot water heater. His body was from my finger tips to mid wrist and tail would extend to my elbow. Big wolf rat.

This closet is only a 3 ft by 5 ft space, crammed with junk and Christmas decorations. I grabbed a machete and closed the door locking myself in a confined space with the rat. I went to battle Conan style with full primal blood lust and the exhilaration of the hunt. I was actually growling as I hacked and slashed at this thing, sparks flying off the concrete and blood spattering off grazing blows. Finally he made a dash for the space under the door and I broke both his back legs as he squeezed his body under the gap. I snatched open the door as he was dragging his body across the garage. I calmly walked up to him and brought the blade down on his neck.

The idea was to cut his head off but the blade was so dull all I did was break his neck paralyzing him. As I watched him sitting there bleeding with his ears still twitching and his eyes blinking and watching me in fear I felt a curious mix of triumph and guilt for what I did even as my hands still shook from the adrenaline.

I carried him into the back yard and dug a hole to bury him. I felt the cowardly thing to do would be to let him slowly suffocate from being buried alive, so I used the shovel to bash his head in killing him before I finally covered him with dirt. In true primate fashion I then went to my mate and reenacted the battle with gusto and props to show my alpha maleness in a modern world.

I am not passing judgment on any of the emotions I experienced during all this, but I find them very interesting from a anthropological prospective.

Friday, May 7, 2010

Blog Changes

I have updated the look of the site. It really was in need of it since it has basically stayed the same for the past few years. Most noticeably I have added a new banner at the top of the blog. Let me know if you like it.

Additionally, I again had to make a change to the permissions level for posting comments. Originally I allowed full open access and anonymous comment posting. This lead to a lot of spam, strangely it was mostly for asian porn sites, so I changed it that you had to have an ID to comment. This worked for awhile but lately the asian porn spam has returned and I keep having to delete it. So I have again opened it up that anyone can comment, even anonymously, but you now have to type in the squiggle words to prove you are not a bot. We shall see if that works and if not I will change it back that people have to sign in.

I also added a feed link at the top left of the site. Already seventeen people have subscribed. Feel free to join in.

Thursday, May 6, 2010

Overview of Liber CCC - Khabs am Pekht

Publication in Class E, that is a public statement on how to spread the Law of Thelema.

Liber CCC (I can't help but think of the three hundred Spartans at the Battle of Thermopylae, but is actually a reference to the Hebrew numeration of Khabs am Pekht, Light in Extension) was written by Crowley in the year 1919 just after the end of World War I as mentioned in the opening lines. He claims the war was a direct result of the new aeon of Horus to prepare the people of Earth to accept Thelema. To accont for this claim he uses the Greek myth of Jason and the Golden Fleece thusly: The Beast seeking the great work is guided by wisdom and assisted by the Scarlet Women to subdue the previous aeon of Osiris. Accomplishing this mankind is filled with the force and fire of Ra-Hoor-Khuit.

Next he states that it is our duty to spread the Law of Thelema as commanded in the Book of the Law, Chapter I, verse 5. His argument is very similar to the one he presents in Duty, "You may regard the establishment of the Law of Thelema as an essential element of your True Will."

The text proceeds to give numerous examples from the Book of the Law on the manner to proceed in this task.

1. BoL I.15 - Proceed with confidence and without doubt.
2. BoL I.34 - Do not be selective in the process, but instead be all inclusive. Catholic.
3. BoL I.38 - We are bound by duty to teach.
4. BoL I.37 - Teach not only the Law of Thelema, but also the techniques of magick.
5. BoL I.40-44, 51, 61, 63 - That doing so will arouse animosity, but it will provide a platform to present the Law.
6. BoL II.9 - It will provide comfort to those who receive the Law.
7. BoL II.19-20 - It will provide joy to those who receive the Law.
8. BoL III.23-26 - The practical method of overcoming opposition.
9. BoL III.38 - The new aeon itself will make itself known.
10. BoL III.39, 42 - Distribute Liber AL vel Legis to everyone you meet, but no preaching or crude attempts at conversion. They can take it or leave it.
11. BoL III.42 - Rather than relying only on speech, spread the Law by your example and success.

Further the text notes that the entire third chapter of Liber AL vel Legis points to the fact that sooner or later the Law will be spread with actual physical violence.

Additionally from the examples presented from Liber AL vel Legis, Crowley continues on by giving his own practical advice for extending the Dominion of the Law of Thelema throughout the whole world.

1. That verbal and written correspondence should announce the Law in the form of opening, "Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law", and closing, "Love is the law, love under will".
2. That social gatherings be held where the Law is read and explained.
3. That tracts be written and distributed.
4. That Thelemic Schools and Universities be established and Thelemic scholarships provided to currently existing institutions.
5. That especially children should be taught the Law early and often to spare them the misery of the old aeon.
6. That everyone support the O.T.O. and empower them to the best of our ability that they may spread the Law.
7. That everyone bind themselves with an oath to make Freedom perfect.

Note: There are 11 examples from Liber AL given and 7 practical examples given.
11 - extension, number of words in "Do what thy wilt..."
7 - perfection, number of words in "Love is the law..."
7x11=77 - magick perfected, Ayin Zayin Liber OZ

The text closes with a parable of building a fire with green wood. That is begin small and easy, success at this will lead to greater success with the big and difficult.


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Comments on this text:

Overall I have to think this has to be uncomfortable for most people who consider themselves Thelemites, myself included. Much of it appears very similar to Christian and Muslim proselytizing techniques, which most people outside those communities tend to despise. Yet here is Crowley not only advising us to engage in it, but saying it is our will and duty to do so. Although it is tempered by the statement of "convert not". The flavor remains and is a hard pill to swallow.

Regardless of your thoughts on that, you have to accept it as fact that there is a willful rejection of the advice provided by today's Thelemites. The O.T.O. is a weak ineffectual group, there are no tracts of the kind you see with Evangelical Christians, no people on street corners distributing the Book of the Law or placing them in hotel rooms like the Gideons, no schools being built or scholarships offered, and does anyone use the recommended greeting other than to other known Thelemites?

It has been 91 years since this was published, has any of this come to pass or in the very least have plans for this to happen at some point? I do not believe so. Perhaps we all should do our part regardless of "Official" support from some sort of thelemic group. As the text explains, begin with the small dry wood...

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

Thelemic Haiku Contest



A haiku is a poetic style of Japanese origin. The modern western method is three lines of 5-7-5 syllables.

I like writing haiku's in my spare time. They are short enough to write quickly and without any of that tiresome rhyming. Plus, by confining yourself to the short economic poetic style it is easy to sound deep and thoughtful without a lot of effort.

In a silly twist I have come up with my own sub-generia of haiku, the thelemic haiku or Thelemaku.


A Thelemaku is very simalar to a traditional haiku but follows the following style:

Three lines for Nuit, Hadit, and Ra-Hoor-Khuit.
Using a 3-5-3 style for a total of 11 syllables.
Using exactly 7 words is ideal.

Traditionally Haiku's are about nature, Thelemaku's are about magick, mysticism, and Thelemic concepts.

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In that vain, I am proud to announce my first blog contest. Try your hand at writing Thelemaku's and post your work on the comment section of this post. I will choose the best one and as a prize I will publish it as it's very own future post!

(I never said it would be a good prize....)

Let the creative juices flow and lets see what you got!

Eye of Horus


Illusion.
The Eye of Horus sees.
Leaving that.





Cauda Pavonis

A shift in consciousness. Initiation of the highest holy.
Star to the tower.
Introspection becomes destruction.

Fermentation. Step by step. Brick by brick.

Peh, the mouth shall swallow me whole, digest me, and excrete me in a form unrecognizable.
To fertilize the earth for new life.

In the name of the initiator. amen.

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

Response to a Comment on the post Fear

In response to a recent comment to my post on Fear

I wrote a lengthy response defending myself and my statements before finally stopping and deleting the entire thing. The person's comment was correct.

In Liber LXI vel Causae, we are told to expose our own illusions. My illusion was I thought I was one thing and after some inner digging I discovered I was not what I thought. I accepted the lie of who I pretended to be. I am not who I pretend to be. I did not like it and it hurt my pride. My pride was built upon an illusion. Like the tower it came down.

I am not a courageous person. I am not a rugged individual. I do not do whatever I want and say to hell with anyone else as I pretend outwardly to the world.

I am a fearful person. I care what others think of me. I base much of my self worth on what others think of me. If they do not like me then I will not like myself. I hide my thoughts, beliefs, and activities from others because I am afraid they will not accept me. I am afraid of what the consequences might be. I do not like hiding my thoughts, beliefs, and activities from others because I restrict myself from what I can and cannot do or say when others are present. I am more afraid of the possible consequences of exposing myself than any benefits I might obtain. I have a constant background paranoia that at any moment I may be discovered. If I share I might not be accepted and then I would not accept myself. That last statement is a little over the top, but more or less true.

Additionally, in Liber LXI vel Causae, we are told to overcome our own obstacles. My obstacle is to accept myself in isolation from anyone else.

Monday, May 3, 2010

The Delineation of Fear

Fear is failure now.
See it, Analyze, Confront.
Success is thy proof.

Thursday, April 29, 2010

Magick Without Tears. Chapter LXIII: Fear, a Bad Astral Vision

Examined Crowley's advice on fear and combating fear.

Crowley relates being full of fear and abused by the other children in school due to his physical weakness. To combat his fears he attempted to strengthen his courage by picking up the most dangerous and courage needing hobbies he could think of. He reports success from this attempt and then proceeds to suggest other extreme methods, making a habit of walking dangerous areas of town and moving to plague stricken areas, before presenting a summation of how to put this into practice.

"But the essence of the practice, as a practice, is to seek out and to face what one fears. Do not forget that courage implies fear—what else should fear be useful for?"

The direct route. Discover your fears, then face them by doing the opposite. Further, without fear there can be no courage. Fear is useful in that it can be overcome.

"One excellent practice, the general idea of which can easily be adapted to a host of particular cases, is the use of the imagination."

From the general to the practical, he then outlines a specific practice to overcome a particular fear you may be dealing with, which is the use of active imagination, much like meditation AAA in Liber CCCXLI. One lies down in Shavasana, relaxes, then you vividly place yourself into the scene and presence of your fear. This must be done with absolute clarity to actually induce the fear accurately in your mind. Repeat, you must be afraid for it to work, take it as far as you need to. If done correctly the fear will soon begin to fade, then you will become indifferent to it, before succeeding in having the fear vanish. Familiarity breeds contempt, as he put it.

"There is comfort in the thought that the persistent practice of seeking out one's fears, analysing them and their causes, then deliberately evoking them to "come out, you cad, and fight!" (W.S. Gilbert), presently sets up a habit of mind which is a strong fortress against all fear's modes of assault; one springs automatically to action when a patrol sneaks up within range of one's guns."

Fear is a basic primal human emotion, a survival mechanism, evolved to help keep us alive. As such it is hard wired into the species and will never be fully removed, nor should it be, but there is value in seeking within, discovering, naming, and then combating them. This should be an ongoing process that progress can be made in but never fully completed.

Note:
We shall put Crowley to the test. Utilizing the outline above I have devised two meditations to specifically deal with the fears as expressed in Fear: Part 2

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Thoughts on Liber III vel Jugorum, Part 1: Control of Speech

The monitoring of speech seems to involves three distinct phases:

1. Being vigilant and thinking of what you are going to say before you say it.

2. Actually monitoring what you are saying while you are saying during the moment. Already I have caught myself while speaking about to say the forbidden word and instantly switching the word out for something else or ending the sentence abruptly. I am also quickly noticing a cheat where you begin to notice certain sentence patterns where you would normally use the word that serves as a sudden warning flag to draw back and pay attention to what you are saying.

3. You find yourself constantly reviewing the last sentence/s you just uttered again in your head looking for the word in case you made a mistake. You will often do this if you begin speaking rapidly without thinking.



RESULTS OF JUGORUM

Notice:
The chosen word was the first example given, "and". The punishment was
a stinging snap of three thick rubber bands to the inside of the
wrist. The maximum allowed was 10 errors per day. Upon reaching ten,
efforts were discontinued until the following day.

Record of Liber III vel Jugorum: Part 1: Speech - "and" First Attempt
Day One: 7 - Discovered the difficulties of practice.
Day Two: 10 - Shameful loss of control.
Day Three: 10 - Improved control, accompanied by improved monitoring.
Day Four: 0 - Surprising control.
Day Five: 5 - Lapses and exhaustion.
Day Six: 4 - Slight improvement.
Day Seven: 4 - Steady.


Notes:
The first day I discovered just how difficult this practice was going
to be, more so than even I imagined. The second day my mind rebelled
and complete failure came quickly. The third day, also a complete
failure, sense of far greater control, but consequently greater
monitoring of the speech which resulted in a count over the maximum.
Strangely by the fourth day the practice suddenly became easy with a
hyper awareness of speech that resulted in perfect control. By the
fiftieth day I encountered the shear exhaustion of maintaining the
level of awareness needed. Everything in me screamed to be able to
speak freely and quit. I truly hated it. The sixth and seventh day
moderate control returned, but still not to the degree I want or
demand of myself.

Observations:
Your first reaction to this practice is finding yourself trying to avoid the issue by speaking less or only when you absolutely have to. It really begins to dawn on you just how much useless chatter you use on a daily basis. Talking just to talk, filling the silence between yourself and others. Next, you begin to realize how many repeated sentence and phrase patterns you regurgitate over and over again without conscious thought or notice. Not only of the chosen word but discovering a host of repetition with words and phrases, like a parrot or a bad eighties sitcom character with a catch phrase. Finally, precision of word choice seems to be a natural result of this practice.

You truly fail to see the beauty of this practice until you actually attempt it. You must be fully conscious and aware at all times to achieve even the most modest success at it. You cannot allow yourself to sink into automatic stimulus / response consciousness. Once you have extended this awareness to action and thought the results would be god like.

I have noticed the record of my results becoming worse rather than improving. I believe this is due to improved monitoring and vigilance of speech rather than a break down of control resulting in errors. Regardless of observable improvement, the practice does far more than assist control and would be invaluable to anyone.

Fear: Part 2

The first post on this subject can be found here.

Child of Earth, fear is failure. Therefore be without fear, for in the heart of the coward virtue abideth not. -Neophyte Ceremony of the Golden Dawn

My issue is a two edged sword. I crave approval and fear disapproval from those I consider authority figures. This realization is so upsetting to me because I believe only true self confidence can come from inside. The only approval you need is from yourself and fear of outside disapproval limits yourself.

The roots of this fear run deep. Even my parents have commented that they never had to spank me as a child, only verbally dress me down and I would instantly cry and make amends. The fear has been there for so long that it has metastasized and seems to be at the heart of any other fear I come across within myself. In a child like manner I am afraid of getting into "trouble" with some sort of shadowy amorphous authority / parental figure. I am very much a rule follower. I never speed, never drink and drive, am always on time, always concerned with what I am allowed to do and not allowed to do. There is nothing wrong with that per say but the reason behind it is my concern, this paranoia of getting into trouble, being a disappointment, to and from who or what I have no idea.

It is almost crippling as I do not allow myself to be my true self, show my true self, do the things I want to do, or express the things I want to express because I am afraid others would disapprove. It seems I need some sort of "permission" most times before I allow myself to do most things openly, even things that would not be considered wrong. Without that implied permission from someone (wife, boss, whoever) I tend to either not do it or most of the time keep it a secret, even with completely mundane things.

It is completely juvenile and silly I realize but it is there none the less. Strangely this fear for the most part largely disappeared while in college, but has returned stronger than ever the last few years. I guess it has something to do with becoming a responsible adult (job, family, mortgage) that intensifies this fear. I am unsure.

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Upon further reflection I am beginning to wonder if my fear is really two fears rather than one lump. My need for approval seems more masculine oriented. Possibly a left over of always wanting and rarely receiving approval from my father. I want to be liked and respected by men more so than women, and of course I desperately want/crave/desire respect and approval especially from male authority figures and become paranoid and frantic if I believe there is a possibility that they disapprove of me.

The child like need for permission seems more feminine in my mind. My mother always did a number on me and I wonder if that is a cause. Also modeling is an issue. My father is extremely passive in the face of women, especially my mother who would dominate him. So perhaps a good deal of it is learned behavior.

So where does this leave me? What would be the proper course to overcome my fears? How can I apply the equal and opposite application to achieve equilibrium?


"When I was a child, I spoke as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child. But, when I became a man, I put away the things of a child." -1 Corinthians 13:11

Passivity seems to be one natural outcome of my fear/s. Courage must be strengthen. Action the equal and opposite course. Secrecy is another aspect when dealing with the permission issue. Truth above all else. Transparency at all costs.

But perhaps this is concentrating too much on the effects rather than the cause. If I am correct then I should put my focus on approval / disapproval and need for permission. Permission seems an easy fix. Do not seek it, do not ask for it, do not even look for it. Then apply it with total and complete transparency and openness.

The approval / disapproval issue is more intangible. One immediate idea is to do the opposite and actively seek disapproval, but that would be a high cost professionally when often reputation is the most important quality you possess. Perhaps I could isolate it. Actively seek my fathers disapproval. That would be hurtful but if it is the heart of the matter then it is not off the table. Although if the root cause stems from modeling , my efforts should directed towards my mother or women in general.

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I find myself reluctant to press the "publish" button. I rarely if ever discuss personal topics on this blog. One, it is more than a little embarrassing. Also reading others full on verbal emotional spewing diarrhea generally makes me want to vomit. Something so intimate, honest, and important to the individual tends to promote the exact opposite reaction in others. Now I find myself guilty of the same sin of perpetual personal disclosure. But there is a practical reason for posting this. I discovered the act of labeling my fear was a big first step. Further sharing my secret shame was another step in the right direction in internally dealing with my fears. So this is another act of public humiliation to further humble the pride and come to grips with myself.

Self discovery is never pleasant or a happy making situation. If it is, then your doing it wrong and not being truly honest with yourself.

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Outline of Liber LXI, Liber Vel Causæ

This text is a very general introduction to the A:.A:. and it's methods and purpose. It is divided into two sections the first being the preliminary lection, followed by a history lection covering the rise and fall of the original Golden Dawn and the beginnings of the A:.A:. I will begin in reverse order taking a look at the history lection first. Overall it is a very brief treaty upon what actually happened. Although the narrative is a bit distorted concerning the facts as we know of them today, but generally it is more or less true, to a degree. That being said, there are some interesting learning points made within the story that bear looking at outside the context of the historical summery that we can learn from.

THE HISTORY LECTION

Line 7: A point many of the introductory texts make over and over again. Truth is self evident and the source has no bearing upon it.

Line 9: The absolute rule of the adepts is never to interfere with the judgment of any other person.
"The word of Sin is Restriction." -Liber AL I:41
"Thou has no right but to do thy will. Do that, and no other shall say nay." -Liber AL I:42-43

Line 9 &11: The two absolute priories of any order or society is to form the magical link with the adepts and initiate, without either or both the order does not exist.

Line 21: The temple must be built before the God can indwell it. Equilibrium must be established before all else.

Lines: 22 - 24: Language is limiting. Language systems are loaded symbol patterns, preconditioned thought patterns, and we should never fall into the habit of mistaking the map for the territory.

Line 32: For Perfection abideth not in the Pinnacles, or in the Foundations, but in the ordered Harmony of one with all. A brotherhood in equilibrium.


THE PRELIMINARY LECTION

Line 1: Initiation and equilibrium is and always has been, the key to the mysteries.

Line 2: Only through initiation can you come to learn of the unknown crown.

Line 3 & 4: Advancement in the great work cannot be given or taught, only achieved through the effort of the individual, but guidance of those who have tread the path before can assit in the work.

Line 9 &11, Gives the requirements of the order. Line 4, Gives the mandate of the individual. Overcome your own obstacles and expose your own illusions. Know thyself. Overcome thyself.

Line 6: The call only comes once. Examine yourself and prepare yourself carefully so that you will be ready when the time comes.

Friday, April 23, 2010

Fear

I have been in a very weird place the last few weeks and it has seemed to have culminated the last few days. I have experienced almost a total loss of direction and lack of any joy or excitement in my life, especially spiritually. I have reached a place where I am asking myself, what's next. Sadly, I cannot seem to come up with an adequate answer to "What do I really want?", "What's next?", and "Where do I go from here?"

The last few days have been very pronounced with a feeling of apathy towards any magical practice, feelings of slight depression, and generally being in a over all bad pissy mood. The black phase of alchemy. It has painfully come to my attention that I am full of fear. Fear of criticism, fear of what others think of me, afraid of being my self around others, and the possibility of condemnation by others. I hide my personal thoughts, spiritual and religious beliefs, even my political views from others who I know are opposed or even possibly opposed to them. People do not seem to realize I never have a strong opinion on anything other than playing devils advocate or using mocking humor as a shield.

I am not even really certain of what exactly I am so deadly afraid of. That people might think differently of me. Think poorly of me. Think I am odd, weird, or even possibly insane and evil. When I say it out loud it sounds silly and pathetic even to myself. So why the fear?

It goes further than that. This is a fear I have always held, hiding myself from everyone, even at times when I had nothing to lose. It is something I have had as long as I can remember, even in childhood. I think it has something to do with my parents and being afraid of how they would see me and get disapproval from them. That is really not true anymore for my parents but for some reason I have transferred this need and fear upon everyone I come in contact with. I think that is the key to the whole thing. I, for some unknown reason, have a severe need for approval from others. Even from people I could care less about, but most especially from those in authority. I am deathly afraid of disapproval. Why do I need this acceptance and approval from outside myself!?!?

I loathe this characteristic in myself as it makes no logical sense and I can clearly see the harm and chains upon me, but it remains. How do I become free and obtain liberty?

I think this feeling of self loathing over my weakness is part of my attraction to Thelema. Thelema is all about freedom and especially personal freedom. I want to be free but do not see how to break the chains. This illogical fear is so crippling because it prevents me from being my true self. I dispise this as it blocks me from being the person I want to be. I hide behind a persona of indifference in my outer daily life but in truth, inwardly I am a coward desperately trying to hide my shackles from the world and especially from myself.

Normally I would never openly admit to something like this, especially broadcast it to the world via the internet. It wounds my sense of pride to speak of such a severe weakness and I never show or admit weakness to anyone willingly. But lately I have felt the need and the importance of total truth and brutal honesty in everything and especially to myself. I feel it is an important part of my current spiritual journey. Again this goes back to my need for approval. To show weakness brings the risk of disapproval. Perhaps this is a needed first step in liberation.

Every man must overcome his own obstacles, expose his own illusions. - Liber LXI


The Experience of Dhyana

Dhyana is not something that is very well explained in eastern texts, or not that I have seen. Crowley's explanation is the most direct and simple. The object meditated upon and the meditator become one. The mind becomes blank and a spiritual experience happens.

Recently I have been experiencing something close to this. I only place significance upon it because the experience continues to repeat itself. I assume asana and regulate the breath to a four count. Then practice Dharana upon the breath, specifically the physical sensation of the lungs filling and deflating.

I perform my meditation and after a time my body disappears. I cannot even feel my hands upon my lap or my own head. I become a balloon that inflates and deflates. At first I thought this might actually be dhyana. This seems to match the experience as it seems I become the lungs and nothing else. Although upon further reflection and outside confirmation I realize it is not. Accompanying this transformation comes a strong feeling of claustrophobia and a degree of fear from loss of self. Overall it is not a pleasant experience. The very fact that I still retain enough awareness to realize I am a balloon along with the rising emotions shows it was not truly dhyana.

Although from this reflection I am reminded of a past experience that I happen to think was actually Dhyana. The event came about from an enochian aethyr working. In the experience I saw the entire galaxy spinning and lighted from billions and billions of burning suns. In the next moment I became the galaxy. I have no idea how long this went on as I did not exist or think other than just being. At some point I thought to myself "I am the universe" and instantly the experience ended and I again entered the duality of I am this and that is that. Although it probably did not last more than a few seconds it had a profound effect upon me. One thing I was left with was the sense that everything is connected and one thing. Even to this day I still feel a degree of guilt whenever I eat store bought meat. Not because the animal had to die to provide it, but the suffering imposed on the animal by factory farming. Part of the experience was knowing life, death, and suffering. That life and death did not matter, but rather the everyday experience of your life while still living.

I am going to stop right here. Reading over what I just wrote and what I was trying to explain makes me realize that the words make little sense logically and are shallow compared to the actual experience. It cannot be described in words and any further attempt would only cheapen the experience. But I am still going to post what I have for others. So far I have not found descriptions or actual first hand accounts of Dhyana in my readings. So I wanted to provide something for others who actually obtain the experience or the semi-experience I have been running into lately in my practice in the hopes it may be of some assistance to someone else.

Friday, April 16, 2010

Outline of Liber XXXIII, An account of the A:.A:. with reference to Liber X, Liber Porta Lucis


The society has always existed and will always exist. It is composed of the elect who are admitted by the light, taught by the light, and whose sole purpose is to guide humanity by revelation of that light. The members are diverse, span the globe, and remain hidden from the world united in wisdom, truth, and perfect love. V.V.V.V.V. alone is the revealed chief and only publicly known member.

The society is the source of all truths that have been hidden in religions and veiled in ceremonies and rituals that men may discover the truths when they are ready to receive them. When the world is in need the order brings forth events to lead mankind.

Mohammed was sent to bring freedom to mankind by the sword, but he did not go far enough. Luther was sent to teach freedom of thought and liberation from the totality of the church, but the result was even greater bondage and slavery of belief. Science and the Renaissance was delivered but it was perverted. Finally V.V.V.V.V. have been sent to declare the light.

The illuminated community is the true school of L.V.X.; it has its Chair, its Doctors; it possesses a rule for students; it has forms, objects for study, and degrees for development. Although the society knows none of the formalities which belong to the the works of man. No arranged meetings or choosing leaders and members and crass things of so called secret societies. All outward forms cease leaving only the brotherhood of adepts united in truth and light. Systems are banished.

Though not all men are called, many of called are chosen, and that as soon as they become fit for entrance. Worldly intelligence seeks this Sanctuary in vain; fruitless also will be the efforts of malice to penetrate these great mysteries; all is indecipherable to him who is not ripe; he can see nothing, read nothing in the interior. To become fit should be the sole effort of him who seeks wisdom.

This text should be studied in tandem with Liber X, Liber Porta Lucis. While Liber XXXIII is a history and general overview, Liber X is an open epistle to mankind and seekers of wisdom.

It describes the sending forth of V.V.V.V.V. to the world.
Declares his mission, to save our fellows from from sickness and from old age and from death. To bring Absolute Truth, Absolute Light, Absolute Bliss.

The seeds of truth have been hidden in all religions and all systems, and all are but veils of the truth. There is no difference between Buddha and Mohammed, between Atheism and Theism, but in the beginning one system may be suited for one seeker, another for another.

Therefore the society leads the seeker by the path which is best suited to his nature unto the ultimate end of all things, the supreme realization, the Life which abideth in Light.

In Summation:
The society is tangle and intangible. There is but one truth hidden all around you in every faith, creed, and science. You but have to remove the dross to see it. You will be guided along the known paths until you are ready to see. When you are finally ready, you will discover the society and be admitted, not as a student but as a brother.

Thursday, April 15, 2010

Initial Results in Pratyahara

The body is contained in asana. The body and mind calmed through breath. It takes a subtle knack to move the point of view from thinker to observer, but once obtained is easily repeated and maintained. Initial attempts to concentrate are immediately assaulted by a riot of thoughts. Through the den I have noticed three main voices.

The first voice encountered was, The Planner. Considering my personality and my profession this was not surprising. Sadly he does not deal in the general or broad and far reaching dreams, but rather the very specific. Always planning, always list making, even plotting out how best to write up the current meditation in my journal. He is the task manager of the trivial and mundane.

The second voice encountered was, The Commenter. He also known by his other names, the Questioner and the Quoter. Once identified he persisted to even comment upon himself! He is the background radiation of thought, always on, always rambling.

The final voice is, The Rememberer. Although non verbal he is persistent in dwelling in the past, drawing up images and events from days to years earlier. There seems little rhyme or reason to the events he chooses to focus on.

I find it interesting in the fact that none of the voices are of the present. The near future and the past are well represented, but it seems my mind rarely deals with the here and now. The commenter aside, although he only indulges in idle and useless chatter, the unimportant. It would indicate that attention and action in the here and now is lacking in myself, and there is some truth to that.

My findings reinforce the idea that the practice of dharana is essential to silence these voices and learn to be present in the now. The past is done and will never change, the future is unwritten, the only power we have is in the now. Stream of thought is an illusion. The mind we dwell in most of the time is a turbulent storm of conflicting thoughts and voices. It is amazing any thought can be had at all above the noise. Higher forms of consciousness can be achieved and are desirable, bringing order the chaos. As it said in Liber Libræ, "The strife of contending forces must be reconciliated".

Thursday, April 8, 2010

Outline of Liber XXX, Liber Libræ

The bulk of this text is taken almost word for word from the speeches within the Golden Dawn initiation rituals. As stated in the opening the focus of this work is equilibrium.

Important Points to Remember:
Equilibrium is the basis of the Work.
The strife of contending forces must be reconciliated.
The path will not be easy, but must be accomplished.
Beware the vice of Tiphareth, false pride, be not vain in your supposed accomplishments, do not condemn others, and do not seek magical powers for their own sake.
We are both physical and spiritual creatures. Do not neglect the physical body nor needlessly worship it, control your passions, your emotions, your reason, and nourish the Higher Aspirations
Act passionately; think rationally; be Thyself.

Number thirteen I find interesting, "True ritual is as much action as word; it is Will." This is a concept not found in the Golden Dawn initiations but speaks directly to Crowley's foundational understanding of magick, that any willed act is a magical act. That will must be paired with action. This also relates to the four powers of the sphinx: To Know, To Will, To Dare and To Keep Silent.

The sin which is unpardonable is knowingly and willfully to reject truth, to fear knowledge lest that knowledge pander not to thy prejudices.
Fixed thought is a means to an end. Learn to focus, meditation is a tool to accomplish this.

Number twenty-one I again find interesting, "In the true religion there is no sect, therefore take heed that thou blaspheme not the name by which another knoweth his God; for if thou do this thing in Jupiter thou wilt blaspheme YHVH and in Osiris YHShVH." This is again from the Golden Dawn, but I find it interesting Crowley would include this considering some of the comments in the third chapter of the Book of the Law. Although I believe it pertains to what is said in the Equinox, "The Method of Science, the Aim of Religion." In short accept truth regardless of its source and do not be hasty to not consider concepts just because it does not readily agree with you.

Wednesday, March 31, 2010

Outline of Liber IV, Liber ABA (Part 2) Magick

"Only by experience can the student discover the ingenuity of the mind in trying to escape from control. He is perfectly safe so long as he sticks to meditation, doing no more and no less than that which we have prescribed; but the mind will probably not let him remain in that simplicity. This fact is the root of all the legends about the "Saint" being tempted by the '"Devil." Consider the parable of Christ in the Wilderness, where he is tempted to use his magical power, to do anything but the thing that should be done. These attacks on the will are as bad as the thoughts which intrude upon Dharana. It would almost seem as if one could not succesfully practice meditation until the will had become so strong that no force in the Universe could either bend or break it. Before concentrating the lower principle, the mind, one must concentrate the higher principle, the Will. Failure to understand this has destroyed the value of all attempts to teach "Yoga," "Menticulture," "New Thought," and the like."
-Liber IV, Liber ABA (Part 2) Magick, Preliminary Remarks

The rebellion of the will is how Crowley put it. That we cannot remain in simplicity, to do anything but the thing that should be done. Lack of focus in essence. The will must be trained to retain that focus before any work can be furthered. If yoga produces Genius as Part 1 says, then Magick is essential to train the will, so that we may successfully pursue yoga to produce genius.

Liber IV, Liber ABA (Part 2) Magick, is a concise guide to the symbols and tools of Magick, the science of life, the training of the will.

The Temple: The external Universe. i.e. The contents of your consciousness, since all without does not exist for you.

The Circle: Imposes limitation, focus, and definition for the work. The temple may be the all but within the circle nothing exists except what you place there.

The Alter: Represents the fixed will, the law, as the law provides the basis on which to work.

The Scourge / Sulphur: Energy to arouse the Nephesh, applying passion to the work.

The Dagger / Mercury: Sacrifice of what does not asset the work and the threat of death if we do not complete the work.

The Chain / Salt: The fixed principle, to bind oneself to the work.

The Holy Oil: The aspiration, the will to succeed. It's application consecrates you by dedication to the work.

The Wand / Yod: The will and the application of that will.

The Cup / Heh: The understanding and intuition.

The Sword / Vav: The intellect, cutting away what is not useful.

The Disk / Heh final: The all, the basis of the work. Materia Prima.

The Lamp: The light of the soul, illuminating the work.

The Crown: Attainment, showing the completion of the work, even while still pursuing it.

The Robe: Silence / Concealment Mental, spiritual, and ethical isolation from all except the work.

The Book: Karma / the Past. The record of the journey of the work.

The Bell: The Now. The proclamation, directing attention towards the work.

The Lamen: Summation and harmonization of all the symbols. The direction and goal of the work.

The Fire: The destination before you, the destruction of the imperfect, the annihilation of the self.

The Thurible: The perfect vehicle holding the sacred fire.

The Charcoal: The caput mortum being consumed in the fire.

The Incense: The image of the aspirations rising off of this sacred fire as the dross is burned away.

The test consists of sixteen chapters.
From 777:
Magical Tool - The Labor of Preparation
Magical Power -The Secret of Physical Strength

Both of these apply beautifully to the instruments of art.

Monday, January 18, 2010

Fundamental Obeisance Question

I have recieved a comment from a reader concerning the Fundamental Obeisance or version of it that I have posted previously on this blog.

The Fundamental Obeisance was a prayer that was composed by John Dee following the instructions of the angel Ave. Dee was instructed by Ave to invoke the Lord of Hosts using the twelve names of God found on the enochian tablets for four days, then continue on and call upon the angels of the enochian hierarchy as part of the initial (18) day initiation ceremony.

The latin form of the prayer can be found in Liber Scientiae Auxilii et Victoriae Terrestris (British Library Sloane MS 3191). The english version can be found in The Enochian Magick of Dr. John Dee by Geoffrey James and reproduced in a number of places.

The original Dee version in english is as follows:

Fundamental Obeisance:

O YHVH TzABAOTh, we invoke and implore most earnestly your Divine Power, Wisdom and Goodness, and most humbly and faithfully ask you to favor and assist us in all our works, words and cogitations, concerning, promoting or procuring your praise, honor and Glory. And by these your twelve mystical names. ORO, IBAH, AOZPI, MOR, DIAL, HCTGA, OIP, TEAA, PDOCE, MPH, ARSL, GAIOL, most ardently do we entreat and implore your Divine and Omnipotent Majesty: that all your faithful Angelic Spirits whose mystical names are expressed in this book and whose offices are briefly noted, in whatever part of the world they be and, in whatever time of our lives they are summoned by us by means of their peculiar powers or authority of your Holy Names (likewise contained in this book), that most swiftly they come to us visible, affable, and appear to us peacefully and remain with us visibly according to our wishes, and that they disappear at our request from us and from our sight. And through you and that reverence and obedience which they owe you in those twelve mystical names above mentioned, that they give satisfaction amicably to us also, at each and every moment in our lives, and in each and every deed or request to all, some or one of them, and to do this quickly, well, completely and perfectly to discharge, perfect and complete all this according to their virtues and power both general and individual and through the injunctions given them by you (O God) and their charged offices and ministry. AMEN.



I liked this prayer a great deal but found the language archaic and a tad long. I rewrote the prayer to make it more personal and change the tone to my own sensibilities to use in my own work. My personal version is as follows:


Dee's Fundamental Obeisance (Revised and Rewritten)

Eheieh Asher Eheieh,
I invoke and call upon your Divine Power and authority,
and ask you to favor and assist me in all my works, words and actions.

And by your twelve mystical names.
ORO IBAH AOZPI, MOR DIAL HCTGA,
OIP TEAA PDOCE, MPH ARSL GAIOL,
do I entreat and implore your Divine Majesty.

Aid and bear witness to my spiritual endeavor. Send forth your faithful Angelic and Ministering Spirits, where ever they might be and in whatever time I might call, by the authority of your Holy Names. May they come quickly when called, visibly and peacefully before us. Grant me your authority to command your spirits that they will answer to my demands and instructions faithfully and to my satisfaction.
Amen.

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

The Practice of Daleth


Note: This is an old ritual write up I did back in 2006. I ran across it while reading through my ritual journal. I had forgotten how good it was and decided to share.
Enjoy!


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The Practice of Daleth,
The four doors of the body of light



Purpose: This practice will strengthen your asana, breath, strengthen all the systems of the body, build the body of light, and leads to astral projection.


I. Assume a comfortable posture preferably in asana. I tend to advise the dragon posture for this exercise as the feet align better with the anus. (See Liber E for details) Begin the four fold breath until you are calm.

The Four-fold Breath: Relax and exhale to the count of four. Hold the breath out for a count of four. Inhale to the count of four. Hold the breath in for the count of four.

II. Once calmness of mind and body has begun continue with the four fold breath while commencing with the middle pillar ritual.

Instruction during the Middle Pillar Ritual:

On the four counted in breath see the sphere brighten with power.
On the four counted hold feel and contemplate the sphere.
On the four counted exhale vibrate the appropriate divine name of the sphere.
On the four counted hold feel and contemplate the sphere.
Repeat this cycle four times per sphere.

III. Once you complete the middle pillar ritual follow with the circulation of body light.

Instructions during the Circulation of Body Light:
1. On the four counted in breath, draw the energy up the right side of your body from Malkuth to Kether.
On the four counted hold, contemplate the power residing in Kether.
On the four counted out breath, draw the energy down the left side of the body from Kether to Malkuth.
On the four counted hold, contemplate the power residing in Malkuth.
Repeat this cycle four times.
2. Do the same, drawing the light up the back and down the front of the body, repeating this cycle four times.
3. Repeat this again by draw the energy up the center of the body into the sphere over the head during the four counted in breath.
On the four counted hold, contemplate the power residing in Kether.
On the four counted exhale, allow it to explode from above like a fountain and rain down into the sphere at the feet.
On the four counted hold, contemplate the power residing in Malkuth.
Repeat this cycle four times.

4. Now while still continuing with the four fold breath, see the energy of the middle pillar expand gently, permeating an oval shaped space around your body. Feel yourself floating in this light which is the light of the divine and all the universe.

IV. Now begin the practice of the presence of God.

Instructions for the presence of God:
While continuing to breath, bring your attention to the skin covering your body and consider the millions of pores all over it. Begin to see that the pores expand with each inhalation and exhalation, letting the energy surrounding yourself from the middle pillar ritual in and out of the body. Feel the white light penetrating and dissolving into the deepest recesses of your physical body. Once this is accomplished deepen the porous nature of your skin into the depths of the physical body. See the flesh and bone as porous through and through, like a sponge. Feel the energy wafting gently through the depths of your being, nourishing every cell from within.

Once you are comfortable with this add the next stage of the exercise to vitalize the body of light. Visualize your body as clear as glass and maintain the sphere of energy surrounding you from the middle pillar ritual.

On the four counted in breath, see the energy flow into your body.
On the four counted hold, see the energy sparkle and crackle inside your clear body transforming into a form that will energize the body of light.
On the four counted exhale allow this energy to drift down to the feet area of your body and become almost like a golden white liquid, slowly filling your body.
On the four counted hold, contemplate the energy surrounding you and the accumulated energy within your body.
Repeat this cycle until you have completely filled your body. This energy that has filled the glass vessel that was your body is now your body of light. It will have been strengthen and revitalized from this exercise.

Once you have your fully formed and energized body of light you may remain in asana with the four fold breath and practice such rituals as the LBRP or the LBRH in the body of light. At first this will only be mental projection but repeat this daily and you will find in a short time as a month you will begin to have full astral projection in the body of light. At this time you may want to do such exercises in an astral temple or begin to explore the astral, and raising on the planes.