Tuesday, March 6, 2007

Fearing the Dark

I was engaged in meditation last night and as usual for me, my mind began to wonder. For some strange reason I was thinking of our friendly sun, Sol. The suddenly for just a moment I was struck by the most terrifying real feeling of fear that the sun might not rise tomorrow. The moment passed and my rational mind took over saying of course this is impossible. But the moment happened, for that brief few seconds it was a very real concern in my mind.

An irrational slip or did I dig down into Jung's basement? Who knows, but it does make me wonder. Regardless of how much we proclaim the new aeon. Regardless of how much we marvel of our scientific advances and understandings of the world and the universe, deep down inside all of us somewhere we are still nothing more than huddled masses fearing the dark.

The Aeon of Osiris is alive and well. We might know that a new age has dawned but does our nephesh? Does our mass unconscious know there is still nothing to fear? Obviously not. This of course makes the change and the adaptation to the new age all the more difficult. We must rewire centuries and centuries of imprinted view points, not only in ourselves but in our very core. The part we do not like to acknowledge. The part that still fears the dark and awaits with hope for the dawn that may not come.

Friday, March 2, 2007


To be a Star, to be Alone

Crowley described Fredrich Nietzsche as a prophet of the New Aeon. I happen to agree with him. I was familer with his work long before I had ever heard the name Crowley. Even just a light reading of Thus Spoke Zarathustra will reveal much about love, ethics, and the will to power.

One chapter of Thus Spoke Zarathustra always stood out in my mind as particularly powerful. I will explore this more in depth now.

Chapter 17, The Way of the Creating One, Selected Quotes:

"Wouldst thou go into isolation, my brother? Wouldst thou seek the way unto thyself? Tarry yet a little and hearken unto me."He who seeketh may easily get lost himself. All isolation is wrong": so say the herd. And long didst thou belong to the herd. The voice of the herd will still echo in thee. And when thou sayest, "I have no longer a conscience in common with you," then will it be a plaint and a pain."

Neitzsche is very adamant about the fact with change and upon starting upon a new path you will become isolated. Not a physical isolation as a mystic going into the desert, although this does happen from time to time upon the path especially at various junctures. No a mental, spiritual, and ethical isolation. You can be completely surrounded by people and be completely alone. An island unto yourself separated by the shear fact that you see the world in a different manner than everyone else around you.

With this difference comes conflict and pain. Mankind at an instinctual level is a herd animal. Built into our DNA is the need and desire to be with others. There is safety in numbers. And not only the need to gather in groups but that the groups need to be the same. Any divergence from the norm could be a danger. The greater divergence the greater the possible danger not only to yourself but to the rest of the herd.

Due to this we not only have to overcome the pressures from those around us and society in general but we must overcome our very own instincts. Don't be different it screams! If you are then hide it, it implores! This is of course is not easy but if you accept Thelema, if you accept the formula of the New Aeon, it means you will see the world differently. You will react differently due to this new world view. You will become isolated from all those around you. You will have pain but that is the price you pay if you want to perform your will in the world. If not then rejoin the slaves who are blind to their chains.

"Canst thou give unto thyself thy bad and thy good, and set up thy will as a law over thee? Canst thou be judge for thyself, and avenger of thy law? Terrible is aloneness with the judge and avenger of one's own law. Thus is a star projected into desert space, and into the icy breath of aloneness. To-day sufferest thou still from the multitude, thou individual; to-day hast thou still thy courage unabated, and thy hopes."

To follow this path presents yet another problem. Once you separate yourself from the rest of society you no longer have the guidance of their norms to guide you. You will only have your will and your will alone. No one else can know your will therefore no one can judge you on your will. The responsibility and the burden of judge and juror will be upon your own shoulders. The law of your will must be enforced by you and you alone. The laws of the land must be upheld or else lawlessness will reign. To determine our own good and evil, to do our will in the world, and to punish the violation of the law is both our greatest joy and our greatest suffering.

"Injustice and filth cast they at the lonesome one: but, my brother, if thou wouldst be a star, thou must shine for them none the less on that account! And be on thy guard against the good and just! They would fain crucify those who devise their own virtue--they hate the lonesome ones."

We are left with the words of the prophet. The world will hate us for our choice. They will hate that we and we alone choose our own good and evil. We decide that this is right and that is wrong and this I will do and this I will not do. Not the values upon the tablets of your gods, not the laws decided upon by men, and not the herd who screams, "Do not be different!" "Obey!"

This is my will and this is my law. You will be my mutton and my wool. I will be your master. I will bear the agony of my isolation for I am a star and you will bear the burden of my indifference for I am not as you.

Thursday, March 1, 2007

Prayer of Confession

ASAR UN-NEFER, you who are not my body, you who are not my heart, you who are not my mind. Holy art thou, my secret self! Lord of the Gods. Unity uttermost showed!

Through my own fault, in my thoughts and in my deeds, in what I have done and what I have failed to do, I have neglected to know and do my will. I have cast blame on others and other circumstances. I have not accepted responsibility for my own actions and inactions.

Hear me, I invoke you!
I seek to write new values on new tablets!
I seek to fully realize the Aeon of Horus, that I might work my will in the world!
Such are the Words!

The Aeon of Horus, Part 2

With the writing/receiving of the Book of the Law, Crowley announced the beginning of the age of Horus. A new aeon was proclaimed. But what exactly does this mean for us on a cultural and global level?

First we must determine if this is in fact true. I for one do not accept things out of hand or "take someone's word for it" as it was. I accept that the Aeon of Horus is a powerful formula on a personal level for growth and basic outlook or point of view. But does it apply to humanity as a whole? Every man and every woman is a star. So yes, I can agree that everyone can "accept" this revelation and what it could or can mean to them, but the question still remains is the world itself changing due to this new aeon?

Does it mean humanity is reaching a new era of growth? I would love to believe that is true. I am excited by the onset of the information age. Kant said, "Those who would deny you free flow of information in their hearts dream themselves your master." I believe this absolutely. Worldwide we see the effects that mass publishing, satellite TV, and the rise of the internet has had, especially on totalitarian systems. China is an excellent example of this, the government is scrambling as best they can to squash it. Banning internet sites and in some cases the internet access as a whole. Civil unrest spreads rapidly as they stand like the little dutch boy desperately attempting to keep the dam whole.

On the other hand with the increase of information just how much of it is useful? I would dare guess that over 70% of the internet is pornography. Not that I am a prude by any means. Man is a sexual creature and sex is how he expresses that. I will offer that these type of sites may encourage sexual liberation to the more repressed people of our society but just how many "money shots" do you need to see before you can become enlightened?

Quality is another issue. For every university site devoted to mathematics, poetry, and various arts and sciences you have just as many neo-nazi sites promoting narrow minded garbage. For every Blog or livejournal where people attempt to express themselves you have a myspace or uTube where people collect friends or fart jokes.

A key signal may be that Church attendance to organized religions is down all across the board and interest in alternative spirituality such as meditation and the occult seem on the rise. Yet at the same time we see more charismatic evangelical churches attendance exploding. People of all religions seem to becoming more radical and extremist. Even non religious groups such as political parties and society as a whole seem to be polarizing.

As a whole I just do not see mankind rising to a new level of awareness and personal responsibility. Although I do see signs of hope. Perhaps this may all be explained by the newness of the age. The "growing pains" as it was and the bud is not near ready to flower.

So where does that leave us? Has the new aeon begun for all mankind? I don't know. It is too early to tell either way. There is not enough data to determine. As with all things only time will tell and if your reading this, you and I will both be dust before a definite answer is known.

Until then all we can do is accept the New Aeon for ourselves on a personal level, determine what that might mean for our lives, discover our will and go forth and do it.